The fact that I’d taken gö kar chang lo vows was always with me. It affected everything I did or said. I had become careful: far more careful than I had ever been before – but also curiously carefree. The vicissitudes of life were vaguely like a pantomime: they were scenarios with which I had to engage with whatever earnestness seemed suitable to the occasion. It was possible to be earnestly light-hearted in the face of whatever came along.
p350, Goodbye Forever: miscellaneous memoirs of an English Lama, Volume One Ngakpa Chögyam, Aro Books Worldwide, 2020, ISBN 978-1-898185-51-2